Ugh…I don’t know what to think.
I need to vent:
Are you afraid I’ll steal your best friend?
Are you worried we’re talking about you or divulging our secrets without including you? That we’re falling apart?
What is the problem?! Because the way I see it is I’m trying to reconnect with a best friend, to revel in our common interests, have fun with, and just relax with. None of this was about you.
Why not tell me how after 13+ years as friends, you treat me like I’m no more than a fair-weather friend? Throughout our friendship I have never lied or denied you anything. I have responsibilities and my own issues that may prevent me from being with you at a whim, but make no mistake that you are one of the few people I’d do anything for. Yet, you make me feel like I’m an outsider. Why is it so shocking to you that our mutual friend would tell me things?! Why do you hold your tongue and put up a front to me when I should be one of the people you show your true colors to?!
I know I’ve been gone for a few years, I’m not close to any of my friends like I used to be, but I’m working on it. There are only a handful of people outside my family that I would even consider a true friend and I would do everything in my power to keep them in my life. That includes you! I know my place in the eyes of each of my friends, I know where I stand. At least, I thought I did.
Right now, I don’t know where I stand with you.
I hate holding back my tongue, but in an effort to avoid unnecessary drama and keep the peace between friends, I dropped it and will not mention it after this. Just had to get this off my chest.
Moving On!! 😀