This past year, and even before that if I’m honest, I have really lost my love for book blogging and reviewing. It was more of a job or obligation than a fun hobby. After doing it for a few years, I think I’m just done with the idea altogether. I never felt like I was very creative in having original bookish content and it all came down to reviews and promotional posts, which didn’t mean much to me or my readers.
I’m not blaming anyone or any particular thing in the community whatsoever, it’s just about time I realize that it isn’t necessarily the community for me. Or the one I’m meant to stay in/define myself as a part of. Yes, I have made some friendships and forged a few decent relationships through this community, and those are the ones I will continue to foster and hold close to my heart. But, for the most part, I just never felt like I belonged.
It was a good few years, sort of, and I will always love reading and fangirling over my favorite authors, but that’s about it. I want to be known as a reader and a fan again as opposed to a book blogger or book reviewer. Honestly, I don’t think my reviews really mattered much to anyone to begin with. I like to think I contributed a little something positive for authors and publishers over the years, but I’m realistic and honest and I know what my reach was like and still is like. I definitely never felt like I grew as a blogger in this community.
I’m sure, if you’ve bothered to pay any attention to me or my blog, you’ve seen the signs. My heart just isn’t in it anymore.
Going forward you won’t see as many book reviews on the blog anymore. I’m not cutting it out entirely, but just limiting it to ones I actually feel strong about and actually have something worthwhile to say. Lately I feel like my reviews have been blah, whether or not I loved the book and I don’t want that to represent me or the value of my opinions. That doesn’t necessarily mean I’ll stop reviewing books altogether, as I’ve seen my reviews are much more meaningful and websites like Amazon or GR, so that’s where they’ll be for the most part. Blog tours will be scarce, if any, and really only for authors whose books I know I will love and want to support. I’m all for supporting authors of all kinds, more so on social media, and that’s just not what I want my blog to be about.
I’m sure you reading this might consider me even less of a source for opinions on books, if you ever thought that at all, but that’s pretty much the vibe I’ve gotten over the years anyways. As much as I wholeheartedly love that one person who never fails to make my day with her comments and interacting with me and the blog, it just makes me feel like I’m talking to a room with only one person in it (despite that one person being made of awesome). All that much time, energy, and stress to shout out to an empty void just seems like time wasted to me.
Anyways, I just needed to get these thoughts and words out. I’ve written stuff along these lines in the blog before, I know, but something about how I’m writing it now just makes it more final for me. Like me metaphorical closing door. I think it’s time I get my creative juices flowing again and feel happy about my blog and myself again.
On to the next chapter of my life…